So three years ago, my girlfriend Jeannie had to make an incredibly difficult decision. Pancakes or Waffles. Waffles. So yeah, some of you new viewers might not know.

but uh, Genie had actually gone to college for four years at USC and then did another two years to get a master's degree and most likely you know, bankrupted her dad in the process. I'm just kidding. I'm sorry for all the OG viewers, you guys saw the journey for me. I witnessed it personally how hard she worked, how she studied all the time.

besides all the the tons of hours she played video games and hung out with me. But outside of that dude I didn't even. We barely saw each other because she was working so hard towards medical school. It was the only thing she'd ever wanted.

And then lo and behold, of course she was accepted into medical school. and then yeah, open my email and it says you don't accept it. Yay! oh my God and I was like at first I was like okay, cool and I was like wait what? and I told my whole family and my dad thought it was a fake email. That's probably one of the happiest days of Genius life.

oh my God and yeah, I was just overjoyed and like in the best mood. Oh yeah, and that day stood out a lot for me as well. I Always remember that day and then we proceeded to spend way too much money at dinner. This video reminded me you said your channel was dying.

Yeah yeah and you're just like who are gonna go eat at a nice place baby I was like even if my channel is dying, at least my girlfriend has a future. And then about one year later we dropped a new video called please Don't Hate Us for what we're about to say where Genie essentially ended up breaking up into tears because we were actually so afraid that after three years of telling you all that Gina was going to be a doctor, that instead you know maybe we're gonna go for the less glamorous path. And genius started her twitch career which some contains a glamorous path. If you're a nerd, making that decision was extremely difficult I remember those months? those are some brutal months I couldn't sleep.

So yeah. fast forward to 2023. Hi. it's the beginning of a brand new year I Thought it'd be fun or interesting and I'm also curious as to whether Genie regrets that crazy decision or not.

And also if any of you guys are thinking it's hopping into content creation, maybe quitting your job, maybe Jenny's experiences can help you out with that decision. Hi Sochini, what do you say? Any regrets many? So before Genie tells us whether or not she was happy for decision or Choice how about we go through the things that were cons for you I think a huge difficulty was the loss of identity and in that confidence I had my med school thing and Henry had his YouTube thing I had something I was like I'm contributing and I'm good at in this relationship. Deciding to do twitch, it felt as if that medical school Genie Confident Genie was dissolved and it is now so interconnected with now. Mxr plays and and Henry and also like you know I can't tell people my girlfriend's a doctor anymore I'm kidding.

Number two: having myself worth being shown in viewer count numbers. So when I actually saw the numbers just tank from three thousand to one thousand I can't help but think like oh, it's because of what I say and maybe it's because of who I am I'm just not funny enough. Maybe I'm annoying I'm not as entertaining as I thought I was. maybe I don't bring any value or I don't bring any happiness to people and that's why they leave and so yeah, like you tell your girlfriend like oh yeah, you're the greatest streamer ever, like you're so good and then like the numbers start dropping you're like ah honey, don't worry about it but why it go down I've been a YouTuber for like a decade now to me that that hits home the most because that's what I've experienced a hundred percent like no matter how hard you fight it I think all YouTubers and all Twitch streamers tie a certain part of their self-worth to how their channel is doing.

It's really sad and nobody should do that and nobody should feel that way. But It's it's so hard to resist doing that. It's not like being a doctor where like you were a bad doctor and you prescribed the wrong thing like okay like people get sued, you'll get off the book and that feels pretty bad man. um but like YouTube when your numbers start having it feels like people don't like you as a person.

and I also especially feel bad for twitch Streamers because you see that thing like live on the screen drop when I streamed and like I started getting self-conscious too and I don't know how to Twitch streamers like yourself are able to do it. It's still depressing though because for me I cover a Post-It note. but that Post-It note is a reminder of just like can you phrase it better about how much of a failure I am the first time I walked into your room and I saw the Post-it note on your view count I I feel like I shed a tear inside because I'm like oh my God like Genie is that depressed and that's sad over her view count and like I did this like I didn't like try and push you towards it but I was like part of the decision. again it hits home for me because I also know that I also get bothered by The View count as well to see my girlfriend go through some of my worst feelings that I've ever felt I think definitely me to me feel more sympathetic to you than I ever have in some ways like it made me like feel even more connected to you because I felt like we were going through the same thing.

so then after that I tried really hard to make her feel less like her values tied to her viewership and to just assure her that like look, even if you fail and like you don't get as many views on Twitch like it doesn't matter that much I didn't have somebody saying that to me when you know my was going down but like I try to comfort her in the best way that I can when like times are tough. No I'm just I'm just like you can't even have anyone to talk to I think you were single at that time too. My whole concern priority is that Jeannie enjoys what she's doing and she's having fun and she's feeling fulfilled. Financially we're doing fine.

Mxr plays Pit plays, pays the bills I mean obviously Gene also makes income off of Twitch and that's great and that's another one of the pluses. but I didn't want her to feel as much pressure as I did when I was first embarking on my content creation path when I also dropped out of college, paid for everything myself and my rent and stuff. You know when when your mom and dad tell you that they want better for you than what they had when they were a kid like that? That's how I feel like she started her path and I want her to have a better experience than what I did when I first started content creation and then she's just like oh because like I've been through it all and I just want to like be next to her and hold her and tell her that like it's okay. things will go downhill but they'll pick back up eventually like it's fine.

like I'm here. You know what I mean did you notice there's no Post-it I just need to remove the post it oh my God the viewers hidden button and I did it so Jeannie requested I say the third reason for you guys? Yeah, but I think the third reason for Genie are basically being in the public eye and facing a lot of judgment from a lot of strangers online because people tend to look really deep into a lot of things that we do on videos and come to a lot of crazy conclusions that are really unfounded. Sometimes me and Genie will read the same exact comment section and Genie will get a completely different sentiment on the video and she'll be like oh my God that was terrible. They think I'm a or they think I'm this I'm like you know, like where did you get that from especially if she's feeling insecure about something or if she's currently worrying about something and it matches up with what is already in her head and I'm just like damn like I'm like remember seeing that comment but I guess it's real because they would have like that Yeah and she swears they have like a thousand likes and I'm like I mean I mean are you sure I swear I don't bring it up to and you say that's one and I'm like in my lines I'm like they've always been so nice to us and like I feel like I see nothing but positive comments most of the time.

and yeah, there are a lot of comments that'll just attack things that are just who you are and you can't change. For example, we get a lot of people complaining about Genie faking her high-pitched voice If you know her in person like I do, there's not really much of a difference like that's just how she is and that's how she'll talk sometimes and it's not like an act. for YouTube when I get excited, my voice just goes up. but then I get like self-conscious because I think I've had someone tell me that it's annoying Yeah in real life, a lot of people.

Yeah, in real life someone was like why do you do that and I was like who said that I don't remember it was someone in college Another downside of being a Creator is the lack of social connections face to face when I was pursuing medicine. I used to be like working on group presentations with other people I was always talking with people, being in spaces with many people and then to go from that to basically staying in my room for the most part see I Think for me, it was tough to see Ginny go from kind of like a social butterfly in school and having a big social group and lots of friends and normal people that she spoke to to kind of like stuffing her in a bag and taking her home, bringing her to Seattle and then just seeing her as like a little hermit. I've always been kind of this hermit recluse and like it feels like I'm kind of dragging her down with me into that Darkness like come here, be with me down in the dark and now we have like a really bad sleep schedule. Yeah, like sometimes it's just lonely being content creator like it's really hard to relate to people and you know I I've mostly been alone for most of my life so I'm okay with it.

but just to see Jeannie like turned into that too I'm like okay, wow that was that was a lot of uh, negative. Do you have anything positive? Number one: Yeah. I Get to play games. Drop that cause when you go to Mexico you have no time joke's on you.

That's my job. Okay, but do you still enjoy playing games? Even if it's your job, you enjoy it right? Um, you know? what's weird is that I have more fun playing games on stream I Realized that Yeah, then on my own some nights she decides to join her stream and play games instead of with me. So I understand Chad Awesome Man I have so much freedom to do and explore all these different like skills and activities and hobbies that I would have never had a chance to do if I had pursued medicine playing the piano again which my mom was actually super happy to see because she's like oh, you're getting back into music and art What is this drawing It's just like uh I just want to be happy no I want to be horny no I want to be violent miniature like figure paintings K-pop dances so your kid is just gonna hit her to the left which is to the front audience side and it goes up and up towards the left side and up. Okay so here and this is on cast five, it's getting paid to do your hobbies.

Yeah, literally do what you love cooking. Another great thing that came about because of streaming was that the people I get to meet on stream. For example, like Hachu, she's insanely talented musically. she's traveled everywhere.

Yeah, so you sacrifice maybe people that you see regularly in person for the opportunity to meet people all around the world. and what else? Huge plus is the freedom to decide my own schedule. If I gone to med school, you and I would probably not see each other because I'd have to wake up at the break of dawn and you wake up like when the sun's Midway I Can't imagine how little time we'd be able to spend with each other. I mean these days we take nights off we have several hours.

at the end of the night we play video games together. We're currently playing the new God of War Ragnarok We've been like building all kinds of Legos Miyazaki movies. This is for me like the most one I've had. I'm basically doing all the hobbies that I've wanted to do with my girlfriend and just relax and chill without being like oh, you have an exam tomorrow and you have to wake up at 8am and I I actually get to see Genie when I'm awake and she gets to see me when she's awake and we get to spend all day together and wake up together sometimes when it happens when Gina was still going to school I remember we would hang out on the weekends and then by the time it hit like 12 she just like start.

But the thing is Genie tried so hard to like stay with me because she really wanted so badly to spend time with me that she would start sleep talking for like the last hour and a half of us like being together I Thought that was one of the things that made me fall in love with you the most. How hard you tried that you're cute, sleepy, you would keep talking to me even though you're literally sleeping. Okay, what's the last one? Genie The financial non-burden I've become Yeah, she gets to pay forward to her family who has supported her for so long. not only them, but my sister put a pause on a lot of things because she was like I'm gonna help you out too but now I've been able to help them my sister can like focus on you know, starting her life and her career.

Yeah, nothing feels better than not being a financial burden to your parents and being able to give them money as well. and also I really love my family and my parents like honestly they say like you don't need to but for me like they've sack sacrifice so much that I feel I'll never be able to pay them back what they've given me all right Jason Overall, what do you say? Do you regret not going to medical school? Do you wish every day regression? sorry Okay, all right, that's so cringy I Genuinely did consider going back to med school but I think year two and having Henry here as a huge support I think at this point I realized that the grass is always going to be greener on the other side. But overall, the benefits that I've gotten from has all been great reasons for me to say that I've made the right choice. Maybe it's selfish for me to say I I thought it was a good choice I like the life we live now, but it's ultimately it's genius life.

it's genius choice. I know as the boyfriend I have received quite many benefits from this decision as time went on. I feel like Genie's gotten the point in that like I just want her to enjoy her life and enjoy what she does and to not worry too much about the stresses of being consecrated. I Also do know that not everybody gets that opportunity or that choice because a lot of people need it to work out to pay the bills for them to quit their job.

I Know that engineer was privileged I'm happy to provide that privilege with Mxr plays day in day out. I I Put my heart out there for this channel to make sure that we have a secure future so that Gene doesn't have to stress about what she does and her job and paying the bills. I Just want to make sure that she's happy of her decision and that she lives her best life and she doesn't have any regrets. She doesn't feel like you know trusting me and doing this was a mistake.

Hopefully that answered your question. Thank you guys for watching and we'll see in the next video. Peace Bye.